In answer to the Daily prompt, I decided to write this.
First of, I’m an antisocial person and I prefer to be alone in most cases. And I hate speaking in front of a large group of people with passion! It’s not like I’m nervous about it and I can do it, if I have to, I just don’t like it, and I definitely don’t enjoy it. Never did, never will. And that’s why whenever I have a choice to speak in front of people or to write an essay or something different, I never pick the speaking.
On the other hand, I don’t mind it if it is in front of only a few people. Or if I know the people really well. Like, not a classmate level of knowing, but a close friend level of knowing.
I don’t think I’m shy, only antisocial and preferring solitude. Most of the time. Also, by being a loner, and not talking much, I learn a lot about the people around me. And I believe that knowledge is power therefore, I’m happy with this settings.
I’ve got no problem with talking to people, but I prefer to stay silent.
First of, I want to say that this is not exactly Daily Prompt answer. While the title is the answer to it, I decided to take a different point of view. For a long time I belived (and still do) that future is not set in stone. Never was, never will be. Yes, there are possible futures, but in the end, it all comes to our decisions. With each decision the future splits into more and more paths. If we were in a world where magic was real, I’d say that with each decision a new alternative reality is created. And I mean with each decision of every person, because it all connects. The decision of one can affect many others.
Alas, we are not in a world swirling with magic, and even if we were, I wouldn’t try to predict my future. Because, by knowing or even trying to know your future, you’re limiting your options. With the future known, you can only chose two paths. The one that strives for it or the one that will try to avoid it. When you don’t know what will happen, you are not restricted by this and therefore free to think of something you might not otherwise.
Future should remain unknown until it becomes present, because all predictions and prphecies are self fulfiling. And that is just plain stupid! And anyway, why would you wanna know your own future? It takes away all the fun!
I was thinking about things thas get me excited. I wanted to write about someting big, something that is unique. But, then I got a different idea. Why not focus on the smallest things. Because, in the end, it’s the smallest things that matter.
And there’s a lot of thigns that get me excited. Sometimes it is a great song I happen about, other times it is seeing my cat after not seeing him for several days. (He comes and goes as he pleases) Again, other times it may be the excitement of a drawing that I’m happy with, or the excitement of an idea for a story.
There are tons of things that can be exciting. You just have to be able to look for them. You won’t see them on the first glance but they’re there. Even something as stupid as being excited because it is a nice day out there. For me, there are also many things that I know would not excite many, but hey, it works. I mean, who would be excited over a new pencil? Other than me… xD
So just look for the good in life even if you’re pessimistic realist like I am and you will be excited by many things.
I just read the daily prompt and decided to write something to go with that topic. It is about asking for help and relying on myself. And to be honest, I prefer to rely on myself. Yes, I do ask for help when there is no other choice, but if I can solve a problém on my own, I do so. I guess that it has to do with the fact that I’m a loner. I enjoy being alone and therefore when something happens, I try to deal with it myself.
Maybe it is not the best thing to do, but as long as I know that there are people that I can turn to when I realy do need help, it’s okay to rely mostly on myself.
So far, this setup worked for me quite well. I’m not saying it worked always, but what does? Nothing works all the time. Things malfunction, flukes happen, or a technical glitch. Hey, just on the side, I like the word glitch.
But that’s beside the point.
The fatc that I prefer to rely on myself, it may also have to do with the fact that I never was comfortable with showing emotions to others. Hell, I’m not comfortable with showing them to myself. I’m about as emotional as a rock. Heh, guess the title fits good then.
Okay, that’s enough. I’m just ramblign now.